It first
started when he was like 10months. I thought it was the teeth erupting it will
pass by but the truth is, it never did. It takes hours to feed him and just in
a second he will throw all of it out. It is heartbreaking. Sometimes I feel so
helpless that I just sit and cry. People advice that when he throw out I
shouldn't feed soon. so I took that advice and didn't feed. What started
happening was he got skinny. I showed a lot of doctors but they don't know the
real reason. Some says it's the result of forcing him to eat when I first started him
on solids. which made me furious. I
didn't force him. If we feed them when they don't want food and if it is
forcing then every mother force. Aki is a child who is difficult and was
difficult when I started. He won't even take the first spoon willingly. so
what? I stop from there? Only few are lucky to get children who likes eating
and I m happy for them. Other doctors says it happens there is no exact reason with
age he will stop and I really hope it does.
Before
starting on solids Aki was a very healthy boy. Chubby cheeks and all. People
even started commenting on his weight when he got skinny. I just ignored but from inside I hated it. If I get
a comment like that the whole day I think about what to do. Ahmed always tried
to make me feel better and said not to think about what others says. but I couldn't
help. Only I know how hard it is to feed him and again feed him when he vomits.
My mom always says feed him even after he
vomits. but I didn't and later I realized that it would be better for him if I
did. He won't lose so much weight if I did. So I started feeding him even if he
vomits cause masha allah he don't vomit that second time. He still vomits but
is not skinny masha allah.
From
10months till today rarely goes a day without vomiting. Aki is also more used
to it now. He don't make a big fuss on it. He won't cry but it's hard for him I
know. Now I have even started accepting that he will vomit and I will feed a
second time. It's like having two children. You feed the first and then the
second. I m not going to show him to a doctor anymore for this. I have my own
way of doing it now. I believe someday it would stop. Aki is a very easy boy to
manage maybe that's why even I got something
to worry.
Baby boy I
know it's more hard for you than for me but we will work together. One day that's going to be our past.
