Made peace with vomiting

It first started when he was like 10months. I thought it was the teeth erupting it will pass by but the truth is, it never did. It takes hours to feed him and just in a second he will throw all of it out. It is heartbreaking. Sometimes I feel so helpless that I just sit and cry. People advice that when he throw out I shouldn't feed soon. so I took that advice and didn't feed. What started happening was he got skinny. I showed a lot of doctors but they don't know the real reason. Some says it's the result of  forcing him to eat when I first started him on  solids. which made me furious. I didn't force him. If we feed them when they don't want food and if it is forcing then every mother force. Aki is a child who is difficult and was difficult when I started. He won't even take the first spoon willingly. so what? I stop from there? Only few are lucky to get children who likes eating and I m happy for them. Other doctors  says it happens there is no exact reason with age he will stop and I really hope it does.


Before starting on solids Aki was a very healthy boy. Chubby cheeks and all. People even started commenting on his weight when he got skinny. I just  ignored but from inside I hated it. If I get a comment like that the whole day I think about what to do. Ahmed always tried to make me feel better and said not to think about what others says. but I couldn't help. Only I know how hard it is to feed him and again feed him when he vomits.

My mom always says feed him even after he vomits. but I didn't and later I realized that it would be better for him if I did. He won't lose so much weight if I did. So I started feeding him even if he vomits cause masha allah he don't vomit that second time. He still vomits but is not skinny masha allah.

From 10months till today rarely goes a day without vomiting. Aki is also more used to it now. He don't make a big fuss on it. He won't cry but it's hard for him I know. Now I have even started accepting that he will vomit and I will feed a second time. It's like having two children. You feed the first and then the second. I m not going to show him to a doctor anymore for this. I have my own way of doing it now. I believe someday it would stop. Aki is a very easy boy to manage maybe that's  why even I got something to worry.

Baby boy I know it's more hard for you than for me but we will work together.  One day that's going to be our past.