Naming our Baby Boy

We named our baby boy, Akif Ahmed Ali. When we were searching for names we chose two names for a boy and a girl as we didn’t know the sex of the baby. We found this name through internet. When I first saw this name I fell in love. It happens to me all the time. If I see something I like I will want it. Nothing will change my mind I’ll get stuck there and the same thing happen to this name. The rest of his name comes from Ahmed which is my husband’s name as you know by now and Ali is my husband’s father’s name. We named him on the 7th day after his birth. That was 16th September 2009. The meaning of Akif is focused, dedicated. It might not be the best meaning but I love that name :) .



Baby Akif with daddy in naming ceremony


Naming Baby Akif.


Ready to slaughter the goat for naming

Birth of Our Sunshine

10th September 2009 is the day I will always cherish for the rest of my life. The happiest day of our life. The day I got to hold my precious baby boy Akif. The day I became a “mom”. It was 20th of Ramzan. I was looking when the doctor took him out and handed him to the nurse. I turned my head to see the sex of the baby but all I saw was his head. When asked, doctor told me it was a boy. He didn’t tell me because he thought I would know as nowadays everyone knows the sex of the baby before they are born. I wanted a baby; sex didn’t matter as long as the baby was healthy. The nurse brought him to me after he was cleaned and when I looked at him tears started flowing. The blanket wrapped tightly and all I could see was his beautiful face. So pure. Such innocence. Never seen anything as beautiful as him. I m sure I am not the only mom who feels this way.


Our precious little angel. The very first day of his life.Look at those tiny fingers. I just love them.

I knew about my pregnancy on 10th January 2009. We have wanted a baby madly. I quit office way before I got pregnant so I could rest while I m pregnant and I did restJ. I dreamt of wearing cute clothes and look beautiful as that’s how I see pregnant people in films. But it never happens in real life. Anyway not with me. I had a huge tummy and I looked like a big whale by the time I was due. My nose is normally big; just imagine double the size of it. No matter how much I take showers I always felt grubby. My feet and hands were puffy, I had to take the rings I wore and it easily went numb. I was most irritated with heartburning. Ahmed would go downstairs and bring me ice cream at midnight. That’s the only way the heartburning would stop.



Us on our 4th wedding anniversary. I was 4mnths pregnant at the time.

The most wonderful thing about pregnancy was the kicks. The first time when he kicked I was so excited that I wanted him to kick again and again so I could show everyone. And the worst thing is when he doesn’t kick. I and Ahmed go crazy every time the kicks get delayed. We keep praying and he will kick harder than before. which was such a relief. We felt very protective as we have lost one and wanted this baby so badly.

I have always loved shopping for babies. But when my time came I was way too tired to do anything. I felt so heavy and moving around was hard. And when I finished shopping I wanted to wash those teeny tiny clothes. I waited till I was 8months to wash those colorful clothes. It was that day’s laundry I enjoyed most. I wanted to do that laundry myself but as always Ahmed helped me. That day turned out to be rainy day so we had to hang those clothes in my room and every time I see them my heart flew with joy.



Mummy's angel. Look at the way he is staring.


Proud mummy with the best gift ever :)

Mummy and Daddy waiting for Baby's Arrival

Everyone is ready to help when you come across a pregnant person, even I did. But I knew how it felt only when I got pregnant. If I had known before I would have helped extra than before. Now I know why they say you’ll never know about something you have never experienced.

Though I had a little bit complicated pregnancy I loved every minute of being pregnant. All the problems were worth it. But I wouldn’t have done it alone. So I want to thank all those who were there for me. I got a lot of help from many people from Ahmed’s family and my family and most of all from Ahmed.

Here are some people I want to thank

Ahmed : For taking care of me so well, for doing all the room chores, for doing laundry when my sister didn’t come, for bringing me food to bed when doctor advised strict bed rest, for staying up with me when I couldn’t sleep, for always being there when I needed you and for loving me even when I felt miserable.

Aisdhatha: For taking care of me and Ahmed while you are so busy at office with two kids. For buying those cute cute things for baby Akif, for assisting me when I needed, for caring me like your own sister, for the encouraging words and for simply being there.

Mom: For making and sending me my favorite foods. For doing everything you could to make me comfortable. For always being there for me when I needed. I see you in a very different angle now. I love you more now. Getting pregnant made me respect you.

Ahmed’s mom: For seeing how I was doing, for making me a part of your family, for advising me on things I didn’t know. Even if I were living with my own mom she would treat me the exact way. I respect and love you like my own.

Dhontha: For always being there, for the clothes you stitched, for coming and making my day and for those sisterly conversations I longed for.

Fathdhatha: For staying up with me in hospital.

Kokko: For doing our laundry and for always being there when I needed some help. You are a great younger sister.

Kanbulo: For doing our laundry after I delivered. Guess it’s my time next huh!

Shehe: For keeping in touch with me throughout my pregnancy, for always being there when I needed someone to talk to.

Dhym,Naxu,Marikko:For being the world’s best best friends. For helping out with my problems this one’s for u dhym ;).

Anty: For taking care of me when i was alone at home. Gonna miss u a lot when u leave. You are a great girl.

Our 5th Wedding Anniversary

I had the best anniversary this year as this is the first anniversary we got to celebrate with our sweet little angel. We have been together since 1^st May 1999. It’s been the most wonderful 11 years of my life. A beautiful marriage like the one I dreamt while I was little.

As I have mentioned before we have know each other since we were kids. I used to call him brother as our families are very close, almost like relatives. It sounds funny now.When he was 13 years he left to India for studies with his family. After 5 years they came to male’ for holidays and I spent the whole time with them. I would go home only to take baths, for school or sleep. I love hanging around with them. I was very little by that time.

It was the second time the MAGIC happened. He would stare at me but won’t say anything. He speaks rarely. It was on 1^st may 1999 afternoon that he asked me out. I waited till night and said a yes which was not the answer I was going to give but I couldn’t say no looking at him, a yes just popped out which was the mistake I did which I m happy I did and never would regret. I was 15 years by then. He left after 12 days and we only wrote letters. I would get a letter every month once or sometimes twice as those days the post didn’t work like nowadays. Internet also was rare. He came back after almost 1 year and we celebrated our very first anniversary together. He left again after 1 week and didn’t come back for a long long time. It was then I started missing him like crazy. That was when I fell deeply in Love with him. I would wake up at midnight and read the letters he had sent me. I know all those letters by heart even now. Those sweet words always ran in my mind.

After 2 years internet was known and cyber café were opened. Then we started chatting and mailing through internet but not very often, as we both were studying and asking our parents for money was not something we wanted. I collected my interval money and spend them on cyber cafe’s. A long distance relationship worked well with us. We never ever had a problem. Our love was growing strong and strong with each passing day.

Almost after 4 years he came to renew his visa and decided that he won’t be going back. I was working in ADK as a dental assistant. He will come to fetch me every night and he never was late. He would always be there before 5 minutes and never did he skip a day. He was amazing. I was falling over and over for him. It felt like I was falling into a very very deep well which had no end.

We married on 1^st may 2005 which was a Sunday. Exactly after 6 years we have been together. This marriage has brought me so much happiness, learnt what life is and being with him brings the best in me.

Before I became pregnant, we used to go out for dinner on 1^st of every month to celebrate our anniversary. No matter how tired we are, we always managed to go out those nights.

This time it was extremely special for me and my husband as our baby was joining us. We went to Symphony restaurant for an early evening dinner as Ahmed and I were fasting. After we came home from dinner we cut the cake. With a fabulous dinner and a great cake, the day ended perfectly.

God has blessed me with such a great husband that no matter how much I thank him, it won’t be enough. Thank You Ahmed for being the best husband ever. I love you with all my heart.

Baby Akif having the first bite of the cake from mummy and daddy

Three of us cutting the cake but Akif looking at his grandma who was siting on the stairs.

Our 5th Anniversary cake

Baby Akif at dinner

Seeing this pic it reminded me of this sms ahmed sent me while i was at office one day."If someone would ask me what a beautiful life means, I would lean my head on your shoulder, hold you close to me and answer with a smile, “Like this.”

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Us with our little angel. Look at that mischievous smile :)

I wonder if you were a Boy or a Girl

Baby, I still miss you at times. I used to think about you every now and then. When I see a baby about your age I always stare at them and wonder how you would have looked. You would be going to school by now. I would have been so proud to take you to school. There’s always a part of me missing you and why won’t I? You were the first baby I got pregnant with. The night I got the happy news is still fresh in my mind. It was 07.08.2006 night. I was so happy I called my mom whom I haven’t been talking to for a while. I thought of talking to everyone whom I was not talking in my family. I didn’t sleep that night. I kept caressing my tummy the whole night. But little I knew that the happiness won’t last long. You were with me for 7 days since I knew. But you have filled me with so much love that it hurt a lot when you left.

I was 7 weeks pregnant when it started bleeding one night. I was busy at work that day which I thought was the reason. So I stayed at home the next day. Again I was bleeding in the morning. I was scheduled to do a scan that afternoon. I called my sister, when she and my mom came we went to the hospital. The doctor in duty advised strict bed rest and sent me home. I was having so much pain by afternoon when I went to do the scan. That was when I knew that you were not there anymore. When the doctor said that, I wanted to scream but no voice would come out. I wanted to wake up from that nightmare but I wasn’t sleeping. .I went totally crazy. There were many sleepless nights after that. There were times when I only wanted to cry for nothing. I was so broken. I badly wanted you again.

On 29th March 2007 I and your daddy went to ADK hospital just in your memory. That was the date of my delivery given by the doctor when I first consulted. It was so painful. That whole day I was thinking of you at office. I kept thinking if you were there, today’s the day I will be holding you in my arms. But it is god’s will. I hope to meet you in heaven one day. Mummy loves you a lot.